Today I went and interviewed at a temp/placement agency that only works with architects and designers. I had to fill out a bunch of paperwork and go in for this "interview" just to be added to their file in case jobs come in. The man pretty much told me that he has been doing his job (placing architects and designers in jobs) for 25 years and he has never seen a downturn as bad, as long, or as deep as this one in our industry. Great. He also told me that 2009 was bad and that they don't anticipate that 2010 will be any better for our industry. Great. Nothing I haven't heard I guess. I am just ready to get back to work, whatever kind of work that may be.
So, at least I will be in in their system now and if something does come up I could get chosen for a project specific temp job or something. I also sent my resume in for a showroom manager job the other day. I am really hoping that they call me about that one, its the only glimmer of hope I have at the moment.
Also, a friend sent me this article today. I thought it was pretty good. Maybe I need to think of something that I can do to "reinvent" myself? I feel like I already did that with my career switch to interior design though, so maybe that's why I am so hesitant to figure out the next best thing that I can do. I JUST WANT TO WORK AGAIN (preferably doing something semi related to my field)!!
Enjoy the article, I thought it was interesting...
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/01/21/garden/21architects.html?em
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Welcome to the 3rd decade...
Happy Birthday to me!
30 years old today! It's a quiet snowy day here in Chicago on my birthday. I am hanging out at home with the dogs today and tonight Joe and I are going to stay in and order some take-out and have a quiet little birthday dinner at home. We will probably go out somewhere this weekend, just haven't decided where yet. :-)
Here's to 30 years....
30 years old today! It's a quiet snowy day here in Chicago on my birthday. I am hanging out at home with the dogs today and tonight Joe and I are going to stay in and order some take-out and have a quiet little birthday dinner at home. We will probably go out somewhere this weekend, just haven't decided where yet. :-)
Here's to 30 years....
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
new year blues
Its the new year and you are supposed to feel like you can restart and be happy and all that good stuff. Not me...I just feel bummed out now because I look back at 2009 and think about how I have done almost nothing this past year to better myself or my career. Aside from the weight loss, which is good I know, I feel like I haven't accomplished anything else.
My lay off has really screwed me up career wise and I can't believe its been this long and people still are not hiring in my industry. Its still really slow out there. I have talked to a couple people in my field and they said they think it will be a while before things pick up. They said this is the worst they have seen it for our industry since 1992. Man, its hard not to feel like I got the short end of the stick here. I just get started with my new career and then, BOOM...I am laid off during one of the worst times ever for our industry. Its hard not to feel like I made the wrong decision or like I screwed up. I am getting to the point where I don't know what I am going to do next. I may have to find something else to do for work that is completely unrelated to my field, just to make money, which sucks. I think it will be even harder to find something unrelated because who will hire me knowing that I am a designer and I am going to go back to that as soon as I can?!
Its hard not to get upset about it because I feel like I have messed up so many things for us. Even though its really not my fault, I feel like it is. I want to have a family and move forward with our lives, and because of my lay off we are at a stand still. It is hard, I guess I am just not sure what to do next. I worry about things one day, and the next day I don't. I try to stay positive, but its hard to be in limbo like this. ugh. I don't know if we should stay here in Chicago or if we should move, I don't know where I want to be, I just know I want to get back to normal, whatever that is.
Plus, I have never really wanted to have a baby more than I do now and I feel like we will have to wait forever for things to be settled again so that we can. Everywhere I turn and everything I do, all I think about is having a baby. Maybe its turning 30, maybe its just been long enough, I don't know, I just know that I want to have one in the near future. But then, when I think about a baby I worry about money and about where we will live and where I will be working, and how we will afford day care, clothes, food, etc, etc...so then a whole other bag of worms gets opened when I think about a baby, so it just adds to the stress. I wish things could be back to normal and I could get a decent job so we could get back on track. I wish, I wish, I wish.... apparently that doesn't work.
Sorry for the pity party, just feeling bad lately I guess.
My lay off has really screwed me up career wise and I can't believe its been this long and people still are not hiring in my industry. Its still really slow out there. I have talked to a couple people in my field and they said they think it will be a while before things pick up. They said this is the worst they have seen it for our industry since 1992. Man, its hard not to feel like I got the short end of the stick here. I just get started with my new career and then, BOOM...I am laid off during one of the worst times ever for our industry. Its hard not to feel like I made the wrong decision or like I screwed up. I am getting to the point where I don't know what I am going to do next. I may have to find something else to do for work that is completely unrelated to my field, just to make money, which sucks. I think it will be even harder to find something unrelated because who will hire me knowing that I am a designer and I am going to go back to that as soon as I can?!
Its hard not to get upset about it because I feel like I have messed up so many things for us. Even though its really not my fault, I feel like it is. I want to have a family and move forward with our lives, and because of my lay off we are at a stand still. It is hard, I guess I am just not sure what to do next. I worry about things one day, and the next day I don't. I try to stay positive, but its hard to be in limbo like this. ugh. I don't know if we should stay here in Chicago or if we should move, I don't know where I want to be, I just know I want to get back to normal, whatever that is.
Plus, I have never really wanted to have a baby more than I do now and I feel like we will have to wait forever for things to be settled again so that we can. Everywhere I turn and everything I do, all I think about is having a baby. Maybe its turning 30, maybe its just been long enough, I don't know, I just know that I want to have one in the near future. But then, when I think about a baby I worry about money and about where we will live and where I will be working, and how we will afford day care, clothes, food, etc, etc...so then a whole other bag of worms gets opened when I think about a baby, so it just adds to the stress. I wish things could be back to normal and I could get a decent job so we could get back on track. I wish, I wish, I wish.... apparently that doesn't work.
Sorry for the pity party, just feeling bad lately I guess.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year
Happy New Year! Can't believe its already 2010!
I just got back to Chicago last night and have a raging severe cold/sinus infection right now....so I after driving all yesterday alone and sick with the dogs (who aren't much entertainment in the car) I wasn't up for much celebration last night on NYE. I fell asleep on the couch and believe I was in bed before the clock struck midnight... oh well.
2010 means one major thing.....I turn THIRTY this year! eeeeek!! Actually, my birthday is in exactly 7 days. I wanted to have a big bash to celebrate this milestone, but I figured it wouldn't work out because everyone is always pooped out from the holidays and I didn't really plan anything yet, so we'll see what happens. It will probably end up being low key, just like every other year. I hate having a birthday right after Christmas, its just SO boring!
I guess it is scary turning 30. In a way I've been thinking about it all year. Looking at where I'm at in my life, what I have accomplished and what I haven't, what I need to start doing and what I need to change. I often think about how fast the first 30 years has gone, but thinking back to when I was 5 or 6 years old seems like an eternity ago. I am looking forward to another 30 (at least)! Who knows what is in the cards for my 30's, 40's and beyond.
All I know now is that 2009 was a tough year for me and for many of us and I am HOPING that 2010 will mean bigger and better things for me and everyone else.
Here's to twenty-ten!
xoxo
I just got back to Chicago last night and have a raging severe cold/sinus infection right now....so I after driving all yesterday alone and sick with the dogs (who aren't much entertainment in the car) I wasn't up for much celebration last night on NYE. I fell asleep on the couch and believe I was in bed before the clock struck midnight... oh well.
2010 means one major thing.....I turn THIRTY this year! eeeeek!! Actually, my birthday is in exactly 7 days. I wanted to have a big bash to celebrate this milestone, but I figured it wouldn't work out because everyone is always pooped out from the holidays and I didn't really plan anything yet, so we'll see what happens. It will probably end up being low key, just like every other year. I hate having a birthday right after Christmas, its just SO boring!
I guess it is scary turning 30. In a way I've been thinking about it all year. Looking at where I'm at in my life, what I have accomplished and what I haven't, what I need to start doing and what I need to change. I often think about how fast the first 30 years has gone, but thinking back to when I was 5 or 6 years old seems like an eternity ago. I am looking forward to another 30 (at least)! Who knows what is in the cards for my 30's, 40's and beyond.
All I know now is that 2009 was a tough year for me and for many of us and I am HOPING that 2010 will mean bigger and better things for me and everyone else.
Here's to twenty-ten!
xoxo
Christmas Photos
Here are a few of the photos of Joe and I that we chose from for our Christmas card.
Photography by my friend Sarah Homes-Wigand.
Photography by my friend Sarah Homes-Wigand.
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